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okay shall put my wishlist up first. before i forget again. sorry chloe! grins.
1. howl's moving castle vcd/dvd with japanese language!
2. canvas belts! dont want those with holes and the metal stuff lining the holes. dont like them.
3. guitar picks! relatively soft and preferably pretty. ive got too many hard ones already.
4. baggy s&k pants! or baggy army pants! or basically just baggy pants!
5. the cool kind of necklace! those on plastic black chains, dont like metal chains. how the necklace should look like is based on your definition of cool.
6. shirts! a bit bigger than fitting.
5. spirited away vcd/dvd with japanese language
6. shorts
7. beach slippers
8. water bottle
or you could give me a hug and flash me a big grin when you see me! and brighten up my day.
as always the thought counts. =)
i just realised ice age 2 opens on my birthday. i want to watch ice age 2! someone watch with me.
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had enrolment rehearsal today. so slack, sit there and watch the recruits do their song. one little candle! i made up some spastic actions for some lines and was showing jan. hoho. i like their song. beats ours last year.
enrolment rehearsal... made me think of enrolment last year. when i appeared with my cough boots. and it was really bad. -covers face and runs away. i know i was like whining to jan. i shant say it on my blog. so maluating. last year's enrolment was... just a disaster. ahh screams.
elissa and i havnt shown some people our gangfight. we were in the middle of showing some people. so fun i think we scared waiian when elissa and i went up to her and went "want to fight is it!". then someone appeared. and we were like "ahh" and stopped. and i just realised that we havnt fought with hil yet. hoho, i bet she will back out. because our supremity scares her.
walked with yunxi elissa shihui and charmaine to bugis. but i totally couldnt recognise the places we were passing and i was like "are you sure we are going in the correct way?" "i dont remember this place!" but anyhow, we got there. so we were going in the correct way.
batch lunch tomorrow! dont know why yesterday i suddenly felt like having batch lunch on sunday so i started smsing people and IMing them. and yay. bring clothes. bring shoes. and after enrolment we shall change! and go to bugis. hoho. AND MY CAM. yes how could i forget that.
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went home and was surprised and happy to see kor at home. and i was thinking about it yesterday night about some stuff until about 2. do i rock or do i rock. so i was happy, because i could spend time with him.
was eating my lunch then he stood behind me and started gelling my hair. apparently my hair was shorter now and it was fun to "style" my hair. like right... after a while jie stood behind and gelled his hair too.
my hair looked like some punk rock kid, short of the dyed hair and multiple piercings on my ears, pity i havnt pierced my ears. kor looked like a nerd because jie parted his hair to the side. didnt know what to do with jie so i tied her hair into 2 ponytails. super cute please.
after that, we decided that we would change our clothes to fit out hair and walk around the area where we lived for about 15 minutes. wore this baggy black shirt and wrist bands and baggy pants with a metal chain. kor wore his school u without the badge and tucked in his shirt fully. jie wore this weird kiddish looking tshirt and shorts.
then we walked round. i went first followed by kor then jie. i glared at everyone who looked at me and i think i scared some of them. oops. like when i pretended to walk towards them and bash them they walked off quickly. and parents were pulling little kids out of my way. like LOL, please i dont think i looked so scary. exaggerated. then there was this bunch of kids who thought they were "cool" or something then they pointed at kor and laughed and i glared at them then they backed away! like LOL.
when we reached home we burst out laughing. SO AMUSING PLEASE! like the way people stare at us.
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went to sweelee later cause kor wanted to buy a new electric guit and amp! i love going to sweelee. super cool place.
kor bought a fender for about 2300bucks. chrome silver. super cool. of course it's cool i mean hey i picked it right. but i feel bad. because if i hadnt gone with him and told him that i thought the chrome silver was cool, he wouldnt have spent 2300 bucks, but would instead have bought another one which cost about 1300bucks. 1000 bucks difference! ahhh.
screams. he spent 2300 bucks buying something just because his sister liked it. because he said that he was going to teach me the electric guit soon anyway and he wanted to buy something i liked so next time i could use that. and i was practically screaming at him. but he didnt care so i was like... ppfft. feel so bad. but hoho, dont you agree i have a super nice bro. sometimes i think he pampers me though when i was younger he bullied me and i bit him on his arm and tummy and left marks. hoho.
mummy and daddy will pay for half of it because he insisted on paying some of it himself. that's why when i need to borrow money, i find him! rich kia.
i shall learn how to play the electric guit soon so that his money wont go to waste!
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drew it on paint. im not artistically inclined so you will NOT laugh at it. ha!
i drew it to show what i learnt after thinking and thinking and thinking so much.
i go round and round in circles. i know the way out but my eyes see mainly only the difficulties that i would have to overcome to get out of there. i know what i have to do but i keep evading it and i shut the exit out from my mind. i continue running around, bleeding on the way and feeling dehydrated and lost. i try desperately to find other exits. i try one after another only to find that the "exits" lead back to the track and im back where i started before.
then someone appears. tada. and reminds me of the exit. that all the exits that i try are useless and they will not get me out of there. the only way is to go through the proper exit, overcoming all difficulties that i may face.
a sense of realisation and i become determined. i spend a lot of time climbing over boulders and i overcome it. i see the light. i drink the living water, rehydrating me, and giving me strength and energy again. it's refreshing, i feel renewed. i feel regenerated.
from where i am standing i can see a flash of blinding light and i will walk towards it. i will overcome whatever stands in my way. and i know what to do when im stuck, i look for the proper exit.
the end.
funny huh. you keep going round and round only to find that you are back at the starting point. and the road to the finishing point has been in front of you all the while, only that you have been ignoring it. you wont achieve anything staying in that circle. all you have to do is make that step, and what lies beyond that is far more than you can imagine.
cast all your cares upon Him for He cares for you.
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i like superman (it's not easy) so much.
somehow i can sort of relate to some parts of the lyrics.
im just out to find a better part of me.
wish that i could cry fall upon my knees.
even heroes have the right to bleed.
even heroes have the right to dream.
it's not easy to be me.
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i just realised it's quite hard for people to understand me and talk to me when im feeling down.
because my thoughts are there in my head, and usually i dont know how to translate them into words. so it's pretty hard.
you can only do so if...
1. you are just like me. you are a thinker and it's hard to translate your thoughts into words.
2. you have had the same experience before.
3. you know me very very very well.
4. God revealed it to you. hoho.
so it's rather troublesome when i feel down and everything. because only a few people will be able to help me.
but of course it's always the thought that counts and even if you cant help, you're appreciated. (:
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jan: BECKY LOVES ME AND ONLY ME.
elissa: yes God is great! yay joyful. if i feel joyful twinnie will feel it too!
yunxi: lol! no you're not a psychic. i am. hoho. but still is really a very nice song. so comforting... tata! tata means byebye la haiyoh.
chloe: hahhas but different apsn! mine was frankel road i think. cause it's near my house. ive posted my wishlist! -points above.
brandon: heal the world make it a better place! okay nevermind. somehow that song just came to me. hahas yeah. shine for Him! oh and thanks yeah.
waiian: lol. must come for batchlunch kay! thanks for calling me pacific ocean! i love love love you.
delia: hello! okay shall go link ya later.
becky: yes no excuse to treat them badly. but seriously la, they may not think as quickly as you but they are human right? who are you to treat them like that. hoho. the previous statement just reminded me of the one-child policy thing. when i wrote "if you did not give the baby life, who are you to take life away from him." okay that's irrelevant.
char: yupp. (: innocent and simple. sigh. wish i was like them.
limmy: i dont know la. but she glared at him la. ppftt. i was super pissed. yes. no excuse! grr. im getting upset again over that again.
xhui: heh okay!
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i just realised that im screwed. i havnt started on anything yet. argh. and tomorrow's sunday. damnit.
and oh no. my posts are becoming shallower. ahh. influence... bleargh
nevermind thinking has drained my brain. they will become deeper in time to come. hoho.
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936pm.
even heroes have the right to bleed.
it's not easy to be me.
sometimes it sucks.
im not supposed to be thinking now.
wth.
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